To be or not to be
Of all the confutations of the ontological argument, the most energetic seems to be that which is expressed most frequently as "Who says that existence is a perfection?" If it were to be admitted that absolute purity actually consists of Non-being, for example, the greatest perfection of God would consist, in fact, in His non-existence. And thinking of Him as being, as existing, might in fact be the effect of our shortcomings, tainting the idea of God with the attribution of existence - God, who might in truth possess the supreme right (and incredible good fortune) to, you know, not exist.
Therefore, on those dismal days when you want to wish yourself out of existence, look at it as an exercise of divinity within you. See it as a calling towards that which you once were, and will be again; see existence as a temporary excresence, something out of balance from an axis state of Being-not.
Or don't, because there are enough nihilists around.
Anyway, I fly to England tomorrow. Any backlog in emails will be dealt with eventually.